How gorgeous is Blake Lively with her bump!!!!

I'm finally getting back on my feet. As much as I want to write I just couldn't. I never thought watching Game of Thrones can cause Gestational hypertension. So I was rushed to the hospital last Sunday. Believe it or not after seeing Rob Stark being killed in Season 3 my heart started beating crazily and my head started spinning out of control. It was a scary moment for me. I thought I wouldn't see the light of day. Thank God that we are okay now and my little sweet love remains inside my tummy for a couple of weeks more of baking. I didn't feel the painful preterm labor. It just so happened that I was the only one feeling the rush of blood and my baby is safe.

And so the hubby forbid me to watch any more Game of Thrones.

I'm taking extra care. Bebe is growing and the weight really is not easy to carry for a skinny girl like me. He's moving a lot making his presence felt all the time. He's one really precious active and joyful child and I am so excited to meet him soon.

I'm preparing the little nursery for him. And at the same time my hubby's arrival. Time flies so fast...

I pray for easy and safe delivery for my bebe. The waiting game is almost here. God bless me and my lovely child... :-)

will update soon...

Oh I miss you more than Paris and New York...

I wish I can devour these sinfully now!!! I have never felt this hungry before...
See u in my dreams tonight...
xoxo

Looking Ahead

 

    So I finally finished my baby shopping extravaganza. And yet, I am having the itch to go to the mall tomorrow since my Dad is going to spend his weekend in Baguio, my aunt will be busy with her friends which only mean one thing: I have the entire house for myself and just the household help. It's just so tempting to have a break from feeling preggy and just spend some time alone with myself and bebe while the mom-in me gets busy buying stuff for herself. I have the whole night to consider if I really want to go.

    Anyway, I loved every single moment in Baby stores. The stuff are so freaking adorable. I just don't like the fact that with baby boy you only have options to buy their stuff in blue. I wish baby products come with more color varieties, like green, red, orange, purple ( yeah purple  i think still suits baby boys) , aqua and other shades of blue. The onesies are so cute. I can't help but buy tons which in reality my bebe will only use them for a good three months or less. Oh well.


    I am in serious chocolate deprivation these past few weeks. I am actually dying inside. My OB told me to resist the urge for sweets since it causes infection. I just finished my one-week therapy for UTI. And she's begging me to keep my weight off since bebe is growing one pound per week and I would not like ending up like a Hippo at the end of this pregnancy. Sleeping on the side is getting harder. Leg cramps galore! In fact I was screaming in pain last night since my leg was cramping like I will actually lose them. It was 2 am. And yeah, unfortunately I can't go back to sleep anymore. My little love loves to play. And he's making Mommy up all night already.

   I am suddenly becoming a monk because it looks like I took a vow of silence. The moment my cargo box arrive from Dubai a couple of days back I  got into desperate liking of catching up with my reading. I forgot about the TV and the internet. And I hardly speak to anyone. I was just happily immersed in my own thoughts, plans and dreams for the future. With days going slowly like a snail reading makes the waiting game so much bearable. I can't believe it's going to be November next week!!! Yey!!!!!!

   Right now I just want a brownie. Or maybe two.
   I deserve a brownie for studying hard these past few days. But I have my check up on Saturday and I don't want to be reprimanded.

 Oh a pregnant girl can dream...

#OOTD Inspirations

Pop

So my good friend just gave birth a few hours ago... Man... it's gonna be my turn very soon...

I am anxious, nervous and excited. She managed to have normal delivery even when her baby is big.
I hope and pray all things will run smoothly when my time comes.

It's really hard being away from the hubby and having no mommy. If only my mom were still alive things are definitely much much easier and happier here.

Still can't sleep at night.
I running low on happy hormones.
I get tired easily.

Anyway...

Here are some very helpful reads that are keeping me sane.
16 Rich Habits
(I am almost there... I guess... I need to improve my habits more...)

Bringing Up Bebe
( No need to Buy the Book.. just read it here)

Been contemplating about the design for my Bridesmaid gown for my Brother's wedding... Hope this one will fit... the Blue dress or this one dress number 2
 

Confessions

  Long time, no post.
  Been rather busy with the most trivial stuff and the heavyness of my very pregnant belly.
  Rainy day Wednesday, when it was excruciatingly hot and sunny a couple of days back. I am certainly convinced that the weather has lost its mind. It's just insane. I am petrified of Dengue. With the rainshowers every now and then it's very obvious that the itchiness is not coming from the pregnancy but from these very annoying blood-sucking mosquitoes that are multiplying by day.

 It's really fascinating how my mood changes. I've been up all night for several times now. Staring at the flicker of light coming from the balcony, carefully listening to the cats irritating cries and there I was curled up like a ball with my mind filled with worry and fear, -waiting for the husband to come home when there's a four-hour difference that I am trying to accept lightly. But mostly, I ended up dozing by 2 am since hubby always comes late from work. We promise to watsapp every single day. I worry too much about so many things. I want to be a cool mom and the hot wifey to the hubby. But looking at my reflection nowadays can sometimes bring tears to my eyes when nothing of my old clothes seem to fit anymore. I used to be size zero or 2. Forget it. And how I 'm dying to do my roots. My hair has lost its luster. I am always in a ponytail with no make up on, because it's just too freaking hot here! I miss the glamour of red lipstick and my 3-inch stilletoes. I fear about the baby weight. I am anxious about how to take good care of the bebe while keeping the mystery and spice of our marriage. There's just so many things that's going on in my mind right now. Pregnancy by itself is a life-changing experience. The bebe hasn't arrive yet and here I am never been so lost in my entire life.

Hubby always tells me to just enjoy and savor this moment because  I will miss it. But one thing for sure, If  I will get pregnant again I will make sure that we will not be separated, that we will be together in the same time zone  ( at least). It's different being with the husband than being with my parents and relatives. I am surrounded by people but I have never felt this much lonely. I'd rather sit all day alone in the house and knowing later he will come home to me. Once the woman gets married everything changes. Her priorities and her dreams most especially.

Last week bebe started developing his ears so I make sure to talk to him and read to him and play classical music every night before bed. My little love seem to enjoy it very much that his kicks sometimes surprise the hell out of me. They are strong and violent in a way that makes me wonder  what my little love is actually up to inside my belly. I love him so much now. I can't wait to smell him and kiss him when he's finally here. And yet there were nights when it gets overwhelming. I cry myself to sleep waiting for hubby to be home. Singing to bebe and wishing I can hold his tiny hands for comfort. It's like I am PMS-ing 10thousand times worse. And the next day I prefer to just be quiet and read. I don't want to see anybody and I don't want to have friendly talk with anyone. It's a rollercoaster ride of emotions.

Last Sunday I was trying to do my pedicure but I cannot even reach my toes anymore. I was trying to sweep the floor but I suddenly felt like I was running out of breath. But I thank God for my skin and my feet. No stretchmarks and no swelling. My feet still looks normal and my skin still looks divine. I can still smile looking at my naked pregnant body.

A few more weeks my love...
A few more weeks...

Yes, I am still scared, anxious and filled with worry. But at the same time excited.
I always wanted to be a mom. I always wanted to be a wife to someone. It's my dream to have my own family, to have a really nice place filled with people I love to come home to...