Monday, December 19, 2011
What's in My Name Today?
I got hit twice in a row, with a mere split second interval. Out of nowhere a voice from behind just said hi! and pronounced my name with much gusto. I said "hey" back out of politeness. I don't know what's something different with my name tonight or maybe with how I look. I definetely wore my hair the same way that I do and my face looks no different from the previous nights. I did not sleep extra hours and so I should not be having any miraculous age-defying effects to make me more noticeable. And yet I feel that there's something extra about this evening.
I decided to run away from the guy. Honestly, I think he works with the mafia. I've never met anyone so possesive and manipulating like this one. At first it was romantic until it becomes a constant alarm that won't shut off. I've been out with him once and he made the effort to come and see me everyday after but his nonstop calls that suddenly made me ask myself that if the world will indeed end soon maybe his behaviour is quite acceptable. Surely I got tired of it. When you're receiving about twenty misscalls overnight and several sms I don't think it's falls to the category of normal anymore. I will certainly understand if we made ourselves clear to be committed to each other in which I think I did the exact opposite. He certainly looks nice and my friends can't help but coo whenever he's around me, but I think I just graduated from the good-looks-is-all-takes-to-win-me-over kind of a girl. He really did make me feel wanted and very much liked. But with his third visit in my flat that's when all hell-breaks-loose for all his chances. He's just not IT.
If this scenario happens with someone you truly like( but there's no potential for any solid future or an exciting partnership )is that there's always an ounce of regret after. It keeps you up all night for weeks until you found yourself in the universe of numbness. Sadness was there but there's this inexplicable amount of gratitude that life still is worth living. Exciting surprises is still in store. Life never gets dull.
I earned the title of the Queen of the Night as my dear friend Smiley puts it, just because I did OWN the night quite literally. Three weeks of being the only female night owl who haven't seen the fancy christmas decorations parading in the streets at night I deserve a much needed rest soon. While I juggle yoga, laundry, grocery shopping and restaurant reservati0ns in one off-day before the holidays I really have to save my energy until Wednesday.
I certainly grown more mature this year. And if Santa will ask me If I've been good this year? You bet, and I want nothing but a better 2012 ahead,,,
I decided to run away from the guy. Honestly, I think he works with the mafia. I've never met anyone so possesive and manipulating like this one. At first it was romantic until it becomes a constant alarm that won't shut off. I've been out with him once and he made the effort to come and see me everyday after but his nonstop calls that suddenly made me ask myself that if the world will indeed end soon maybe his behaviour is quite acceptable. Surely I got tired of it. When you're receiving about twenty misscalls overnight and several sms I don't think it's falls to the category of normal anymore. I will certainly understand if we made ourselves clear to be committed to each other in which I think I did the exact opposite. He certainly looks nice and my friends can't help but coo whenever he's around me, but I think I just graduated from the good-looks-is-all-takes-to-win-me-over kind of a girl. He really did make me feel wanted and very much liked. But with his third visit in my flat that's when all hell-breaks-loose for all his chances. He's just not IT.
If this scenario happens with someone you truly like( but there's no potential for any solid future or an exciting partnership )is that there's always an ounce of regret after. It keeps you up all night for weeks until you found yourself in the universe of numbness. Sadness was there but there's this inexplicable amount of gratitude that life still is worth living. Exciting surprises is still in store. Life never gets dull.
I earned the title of the Queen of the Night as my dear friend Smiley puts it, just because I did OWN the night quite literally. Three weeks of being the only female night owl who haven't seen the fancy christmas decorations parading in the streets at night I deserve a much needed rest soon. While I juggle yoga, laundry, grocery shopping and restaurant reservati0ns in one off-day before the holidays I really have to save my energy until Wednesday.
I certainly grown more mature this year. And if Santa will ask me If I've been good this year? You bet, and I want nothing but a better 2012 ahead,,,
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Sunday, December 11, 2011
At one Point I did something like this...
credits to pattylaurel's blog
I remember I had one when I was 13....Gosh...
soooo kilig....
Forest for the Tree
With every step
I took this day
a single thought
swam through
my mind:
I might be
a tree,
tall and proud
and roots that
run deep
but you,
you my love,
are a forest
that stretches
as far
as these eyes
can see.-Tyler Knott Gregson-
I took this day
a single thought
swam through
my mind:
I might be
a tree,
tall and proud
and roots that
run deep
but you,
you my love,
are a forest
that stretches
as far
as these eyes
can see.-Tyler Knott Gregson-
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
These are the things that's been running in my Head (lately..)
Best time of the year is only a breath away. I started playing Christmas songs whenever I get home and shopping takes longer than it used to, oh lots of surprises on the way and this is something I always look forward to.
At work everyone's getting more competitive and that's one of the things that inspires me. Pushing myself to the limits, this little thing that tells me that I can do better. I should spend more time reading I don't feel like I am putting words correctly in this post. haha. Sorry for not being articulate this time.
I've been very busy lately,running errands and all but surprisingly I am perplexed with peace. When was the last time I had a breakdown? I could hardly remember.
It's been a while since I went out with a guy. Not a friend and certainly not with a group of friends. I almost forgot the rules and the works of the first date. Eeh. It went actually all right. I was defitely scared in the beginning but he was harmless in the end. I always have this inclination to think someone I barely know to be a serial killer on a first date. Although it ended abruptly since I have a strict commitment to yoga that I need to blow him off early he was quite consistent to ask for a follow up. I think it's a good thing when you like the guy, but I don't even know if I like him or worse if I need to like him. He was sweet but honestly, I don't think I'm ready and need one at the moment. I told him the same thing and I even told him I will make him give up on me. Yeah I can be cruel now rather than inflict pain to someone in the end.
I went to Al Mamzar Park last week with my cousins. It's becoming cooler even in the midday and watching them make a music video for a hell of five hours truly had the best of me. Thanks to Dairy Queen and Jane Green books I survive the day. And during those trying moments I can't help but take a walk down memory lane. I certainly begun to think of this person and that person. And then I started getting a little emotional watching couples and little kids getting all cozy in the park. What a single girl to do? But have a pint of ice cream when girl hormones starts to kick in.
I reached this place wherein I am complete with or without someone. I feel comfortable talking with someone I like so much and vice versa. Falling in-love again may take some time, but who cares when I am a having a blast in my life. I know It's right there anyway.
At work everyone's getting more competitive and that's one of the things that inspires me. Pushing myself to the limits, this little thing that tells me that I can do better. I should spend more time reading I don't feel like I am putting words correctly in this post. haha. Sorry for not being articulate this time.
I've been very busy lately,running errands and all but surprisingly I am perplexed with peace. When was the last time I had a breakdown? I could hardly remember.
It's been a while since I went out with a guy. Not a friend and certainly not with a group of friends. I almost forgot the rules and the works of the first date. Eeh. It went actually all right. I was defitely scared in the beginning but he was harmless in the end. I always have this inclination to think someone I barely know to be a serial killer on a first date. Although it ended abruptly since I have a strict commitment to yoga that I need to blow him off early he was quite consistent to ask for a follow up. I think it's a good thing when you like the guy, but I don't even know if I like him or worse if I need to like him. He was sweet but honestly, I don't think I'm ready and need one at the moment. I told him the same thing and I even told him I will make him give up on me. Yeah I can be cruel now rather than inflict pain to someone in the end.
I went to Al Mamzar Park last week with my cousins. It's becoming cooler even in the midday and watching them make a music video for a hell of five hours truly had the best of me. Thanks to Dairy Queen and Jane Green books I survive the day. And during those trying moments I can't help but take a walk down memory lane. I certainly begun to think of this person and that person. And then I started getting a little emotional watching couples and little kids getting all cozy in the park. What a single girl to do? But have a pint of ice cream when girl hormones starts to kick in.
I reached this place wherein I am complete with or without someone. I feel comfortable talking with someone I like so much and vice versa. Falling in-love again may take some time, but who cares when I am a having a blast in my life. I know It's right there anyway.
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