Soon

  This week is definitely challenging in a lot of ways. Left and right disappointments were flooding in. It really pushed me over the edge. I spent nights lying awake thinking where, when and why. Until I succumb to my own sadness and just drift away with a pocketful
of prayers as I doze to dreamland.


    It's easy to say, "this may be IT", I had ENOUGH, this is not working". But God's roaring voice keeps ringing in my ears to get up and try again. Courage starts growing like weeds in my garden , I simply cannot give up because there's just so many reasons popping out not to. I have to keep going , there is no other way.

    Big dreamer, Yes that's Me. No doubt about it. It hurts when people laugh at your dreams. I guess I just have to get used to it. Not everyone is going to support you in this life. Not everyone is going to believe in your own potentials. But who cares really, as long as I believe in myself and I believe that God is in control , I have my Big supporter Up THERE I have all that I need.


     If  I can push myself doing the insane things to stick to achieving my goals, so do with other areas in my life. You know it's not easy dragging my ass to workout for  one hour for  six days a week whether or not I have a gazillion of other things to do with a toddler running around nonstop. I can achieve anything I put my heart, mind and soul into. Yes, rejections are inevitable. So what. Some won't, some will, someone's waiting, someone will say Yes eventually.


    I realized that there's a reason why God planted these dreams inside my heart. And I have no choice but Go and chase them No matter what.