There were days when it gets really hard. There were even nights when I just cry my eyes out. Motherhood comes without a manual. Unlike my cousins who hired two nannies to help them out, I decided to do everything by myself. I want to challenge myself since I did not push my baby out of my lady bits; sort of I wanted to punish myself for missing the most magical event of the woman giving birth the natural way. And here I am still grasping for air after almost two months. But one thing's change I feel almost floating in cloud nine whenever my little one smiles and laughs at me whenever I look completely helpless and sometimes paranoid. I forget how tired I am almost instantly. How come this little creature can occupy so much space in my heart? I am so in love.
Certainly, there were times as well when I ask myself when will I go back to work? I kinda miss living in a suitcase. However the thought of leaving my precious bebe in the care of someone else terrifies me. He couldn't even last an hour without me by his side. I kinda feel like he knows where mommy is; when he no longer smells my natural milk-y almost like condensed milk -smell he will cry his lungs out ( yeah) and all hell breaks loose. So maybe coming back to work is not gonna happen anytime soon. I need to focus on bringing up bebe while putting myself back together. I started working out. I do yoga and a little bit cross fit. I started watching what I eat too. It really saddens me seeing my tummy without its glory. haha. And so waking up 4 am is my go-to schedule and by 7 pm me and Sasha are already singing lullaby to one another.
There's this one quote from Ashton Kutcher that perfectly describes motherhood or parenthood...
Certainly, there were times as well when I ask myself when will I go back to work? I kinda miss living in a suitcase. However the thought of leaving my precious bebe in the care of someone else terrifies me. He couldn't even last an hour without me by his side. I kinda feel like he knows where mommy is; when he no longer smells my natural milk-y almost like condensed milk -smell he will cry his lungs out ( yeah) and all hell breaks loose. So maybe coming back to work is not gonna happen anytime soon. I need to focus on bringing up bebe while putting myself back together. I started working out. I do yoga and a little bit cross fit. I started watching what I eat too. It really saddens me seeing my tummy without its glory. haha. And so waking up 4 am is my go-to schedule and by 7 pm me and Sasha are already singing lullaby to one another.
There's this one quote from Ashton Kutcher that perfectly describes motherhood or parenthood...
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