Would you believe me that I am actually enjoying this unexpected long leave days that my very generous company has given me? Oh. I am so blessed. Not only that I had all my leave days approve according to my requests, the Scheduling people were nice enough to give me off days before and after. My boyfriend even asked me if I am still employed because while he drown himself with a truckload of work I am here with my sexy butt (hahaha) singing sweet melodies with my chocolate fudge ice cream ( which later I will work out intensely ).
Oh but I miss the smell of a new aircraft minus the crew meals. I love my job for it gives me the great opportunity to see the world for free and explore new boundaries about myself. And you know what, the most challenging part of the job really is not the job itself. Rather it is knowing how to be in-harmony with the people you're working with. You have no idea how much pressure it is to work according to standards when the onboard-updates changes in a bat of an eyelash. It's hard enough to work perfectly while your Seniors scrutinize you under the microscope while trying to break the ice with your colleagues who can be mean, sweet or downright bitchy. So this butterscotch-like summer days I've been spending here there, and everywhere in Dubai is sort of, a break from being a people-pleaser which is a major requirement in the field that I am in.
I feel like work is actually when I am not at work. I started to juggle my determination to be fluent in Russian ( as a life-future-love-necessity) my yoga class that I've been developing and my incessant desire to improve myself in all levels. Since I spend most of the time all by myself I want to devote my time learning new things about her a.k.a Me/yoursTruly. I realized that I am getting indeed- bored in putting my alarm always at 8 am and doing things the same way over and over and decided to put it at 9 and do my daily routines in a different order. Since I am left with no choice but to handle "me" most of the time, it is just important that I create new diversions to keep things always new, fresh and exciting like the saying goes that the love of oneself is the start of a life-long romance. This is a relationship that I am having with myself. And it also made me think that if I get to create new passion, new habits the better I can relate with others and to those people who are dear to me. Oh, you might think that I am being too self-centered. Actually it is quite the opposite.
I learned that in my twenty-something years of existence I am the type who can't be left with nothing to do. For me relaxing is doing yoga while watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians or playingCandy Crush while waiting for my new-painted nails to dry, ironing the clothes while cooking the rice or the sweet potatoes, making home-made spa remedies while preparing breakfast. I am the multi-tasking girl. I just can't let my hands or parts of me to be idle. And so, I don't mind giving-in to errands asked by loved-ones just to pass time. It's nice to be needed and wanted once in a while. To help, to serve and to share stuff I know and inspire others.
That's why it's a big question mark if I won't be knocked out by late evening since my days are always full of chores.
And there are things that you can't just run away from.
I've been seeing this friend of mine for a couple months now since earlier this year for a specific reason. Not really for girl-bonding but to help me nourish my faith and have a better relationship with God. I grew up in an environment where God lives among us and have the Bible as my first hard-bound book I ever possessed. My parents are hard-core believers. And while growing up, I've suffered and seen much and I was thankful for this acknowledgement of God for without this faith I would have chosen to live my life differently. And so, the real story behind this post has dawned on me a couple of days back when evil starts to reside inside my mind.
You know it's true that something's changed once you stop praying. I can't really recall which day it was but that was this time when I was inside the mall where I felt completely claustrophobic. I almost run while walking in the metro. Avoiding people in the lifts and thinking mean stuff about them when they pass me by. And when I reached home I felt hate inside my heart because this girl was staring at me and anger when two young men overtook my turn in the taxi line. I am not normally the type to get pissed easily and curse mercilessly just because of that. But during that time, I was just standing up straight thinking and seeing things evil and mean. Then night came I did not even whispered a prayer.
I felt empty. Something's wrong. I can't take the deafening silence, like I am being possessed.
Then I remember my mother. She used to tell me when I was just a young student in school that if I watch too much TV my studies will suffer.
It goes true with our relationship with God. If I will get too consumed with ambition and material stuff I will neglect him in no time. And I know I will be a different person whom I won't like.
It's like I was dying of thirst to get to know him more. He's our Great Provider and treating Him just like everyone else was just plain wrong. It took me a week or two to get to my senses that the hollowness I've been having when left alone was because I am not giving Him what He should be getting from me. If I could travel two hours just to satisfy the longing of my heart for one person how much more can I do to reach him? when I don't need to travel far for He is just here, waiting for her reluctant daughter.
I am grateful for all the blessings in my life, all the answered prayers and my peace.
And to praise him and worship He deserves so.
When you're confused, sometimes you don't have to look far to realize what you have been missing.
Your relationship with Him is the best one you will ever have.
There are some thirsts that can't be quench by water or any Energy drink out there.
All you have to do is open your heart and Let Him in.
Have a blessed Weekend everyone!
Oh but I miss the smell of a new aircraft minus the crew meals. I love my job for it gives me the great opportunity to see the world for free and explore new boundaries about myself. And you know what, the most challenging part of the job really is not the job itself. Rather it is knowing how to be in-harmony with the people you're working with. You have no idea how much pressure it is to work according to standards when the onboard-updates changes in a bat of an eyelash. It's hard enough to work perfectly while your Seniors scrutinize you under the microscope while trying to break the ice with your colleagues who can be mean, sweet or downright bitchy. So this butterscotch-like summer days I've been spending here there, and everywhere in Dubai is sort of, a break from being a people-pleaser which is a major requirement in the field that I am in.
I feel like work is actually when I am not at work. I started to juggle my determination to be fluent in Russian ( as a life-future-love-necessity) my yoga class that I've been developing and my incessant desire to improve myself in all levels. Since I spend most of the time all by myself I want to devote my time learning new things about her a.k.a Me/yoursTruly. I realized that I am getting indeed- bored in putting my alarm always at 8 am and doing things the same way over and over and decided to put it at 9 and do my daily routines in a different order. Since I am left with no choice but to handle "me" most of the time, it is just important that I create new diversions to keep things always new, fresh and exciting like the saying goes that the love of oneself is the start of a life-long romance. This is a relationship that I am having with myself. And it also made me think that if I get to create new passion, new habits the better I can relate with others and to those people who are dear to me. Oh, you might think that I am being too self-centered. Actually it is quite the opposite.
I learned that in my twenty-something years of existence I am the type who can't be left with nothing to do. For me relaxing is doing yoga while watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians or playingCandy Crush while waiting for my new-painted nails to dry, ironing the clothes while cooking the rice or the sweet potatoes, making home-made spa remedies while preparing breakfast. I am the multi-tasking girl. I just can't let my hands or parts of me to be idle. And so, I don't mind giving-in to errands asked by loved-ones just to pass time. It's nice to be needed and wanted once in a while. To help, to serve and to share stuff I know and inspire others.
That's why it's a big question mark if I won't be knocked out by late evening since my days are always full of chores.
And there are things that you can't just run away from.
I've been seeing this friend of mine for a couple months now since earlier this year for a specific reason. Not really for girl-bonding but to help me nourish my faith and have a better relationship with God. I grew up in an environment where God lives among us and have the Bible as my first hard-bound book I ever possessed. My parents are hard-core believers. And while growing up, I've suffered and seen much and I was thankful for this acknowledgement of God for without this faith I would have chosen to live my life differently. And so, the real story behind this post has dawned on me a couple of days back when evil starts to reside inside my mind.
You know it's true that something's changed once you stop praying. I can't really recall which day it was but that was this time when I was inside the mall where I felt completely claustrophobic. I almost run while walking in the metro. Avoiding people in the lifts and thinking mean stuff about them when they pass me by. And when I reached home I felt hate inside my heart because this girl was staring at me and anger when two young men overtook my turn in the taxi line. I am not normally the type to get pissed easily and curse mercilessly just because of that. But during that time, I was just standing up straight thinking and seeing things evil and mean. Then night came I did not even whispered a prayer.
I felt empty. Something's wrong. I can't take the deafening silence, like I am being possessed.
Then I remember my mother. She used to tell me when I was just a young student in school that if I watch too much TV my studies will suffer.
It goes true with our relationship with God. If I will get too consumed with ambition and material stuff I will neglect him in no time. And I know I will be a different person whom I won't like.
It's like I was dying of thirst to get to know him more. He's our Great Provider and treating Him just like everyone else was just plain wrong. It took me a week or two to get to my senses that the hollowness I've been having when left alone was because I am not giving Him what He should be getting from me. If I could travel two hours just to satisfy the longing of my heart for one person how much more can I do to reach him? when I don't need to travel far for He is just here, waiting for her reluctant daughter.
I am grateful for all the blessings in my life, all the answered prayers and my peace.
And to praise him and worship He deserves so.
When you're confused, sometimes you don't have to look far to realize what you have been missing.
Your relationship with Him is the best one you will ever have.
There are some thirsts that can't be quench by water or any Energy drink out there.
All you have to do is open your heart and Let Him in.
Have a blessed Weekend everyone!
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