I am the type of girl who makes a to-do list every single day.
I have a set of goals to achieve for the the whole year.
I am the type who looks at the future with enthusiasm and a little bit of fear.
Numerous times I get disappointed. Sometimes I don't like to get my hopes up but then again that's the best feeling you could possibly have-- to own and declare it before it actually arrives.
There were moments that left me clueless for the sudden changes. But you know that everything happens for a reason. Everything has already been orchestrated before they unfold. So now, I just have to nourish my faith.
There's still so many things I want to do. So many places to see, so many interesting people I am very much excited to meet who will either like me or judge me. And that should not bother me.
The first half of 2013 is like playing Candy Crush. When you hit the candies bearing the same color it gives space to move other candies and it could be delicious, tasty or divine and sometimes no effect in the whole game at all. You have a certain number of moves available until you reached the End Game or cheat by buying Moves and Boosters. But I like the excitement of pure innocent effort to succeed. And sometimes starting over when you did not make it right on the first try is just what you need.
Right now, my game isn't moving the way I expect it should. I experienced those sleepless nights engulfed with worry. I have no control of the universe. I just can't make those changes and promotions with a single phone call to the Sheikh but I don't mind having endless conversation with God to pardon me and let me get through my struggles.
My dreams are bigger than the obstacles in front of me. As they say, the happiest people don't have the Best of everything but they make the best of everything they have. And forever and always... I am thankful that I am loved and blessed with having an amazing family, friends and a significant other.
I know I will get there.
My time will come for sure...
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