Self-talk

  I woke up today with a slight headache. As I try to grasp the events that happened last night I couldn't help but assume if I was drunk or something when I reached my bed. But no, I did not drink any alcohol.

    Since my training started I was acting more like a super girl.  Running errands after attending classes, waking up as early as four and sleeping late 'til I hit my bed  and shutting off automatically. And making matters worse, the yellow fever vaccine made me sick and sluggish after a few days after the shot. There were times during the last week that I wished for someone to be  kind enough to open my head to see what's in there, because the pain was just excruciatingly unbearable.

   When it's work, I work. HARD. When I am off, I am definitely OFF.
    At the end of the day, we owe whatever to ourselves alone. We have goals set. We want something's to happen. We do our best to get it. And for me, it's our ultimate right to reward ourselves after such  a long week.

      It's amazing to spend the weekend with someone who kisses you goodnight. Wishing that his kisses will last 'til you see him again. The week will be long and that's like the magical glue that sticks the pieces together. You knew how it felt to be a kid again. The burning heat and the thrill of electricity as I longed for air to fill my lungs. You never been kissed like that. It's hard to miss someone because it makes you feel hungry of being together or something like that. I don't have the perfect words to describe it. It's like a long summer without rain and when it does the soil absorbs it quickly and it doesn't satisfy that thirst. Sometimes I don't understand myself. But then who cares? Not all of us have the answers anyway.

   I went to church and did some errands. I have a lot of studying to do. And I miss reading Edward Cullen's Midnight Sun. I have another long day ahead of me tomorrow. I am still entitled for another day off but it will be another working day for me it seems.I am grateful for having my extended family being just a five to fifteen minute taxi ride from me. Otherwise I will completely lose my mind.

   Life balance. We can master such. And live life sealed in prayers.
   I believe in God. I believe in Love. I believe in achieving our dreams and whatever our deepest heart's desires are.  I believe that nothing is impossible. I know the way there is not easy. But I have faith. I have more than enough to keep me going. And  I feel blessed everyday.

  I will never be perfect and nobody will be. But you know what, your imperfections might be just perfect for that another imperfect person right for you.