Call-in Sick

    It's a scary world out there, - the uncertainties, the never-ending changes, the lack of stability. Sometimes it's better to just hide somewhere to avoid such surprises. But then, life isn't supposed to be like that. It's meant to be lived no matter how tough it seems to be.

   One of the greatest things in life is having people around us as we go over the mystery of each encounter. Friendship is wonderful, falling-in love gives us reason to live, acquaintances makes  us learn a thing or two about ourselves. No man is an island as they say.

   There was one point in my life that I just wanted to be left alone. I used to not enjoying the company of others. Then as years went by, as my personal insecurities took a back seat I learned that it is indeed more fun to share moments with others. I used to be this selfish-spoiled little girl who always get what she wants when she wants it. I guess life has its own way to take care of things. Hardships can throw us over the edge sometimes. I am grateful that I have my faith to guide me otherwise I could up ended somewhere dark and cold. It made me humble. It made me appreciate even the smallest things.

   Today is supposed to be a whole day of fun, relaxation, and butterflies playing around my stomach and yet I ended up covered with sweats in a lazy Friday afternoon by myself. Getting ill definitely sucks. I realized that being well is like having ice cream for breakfast, lunch and dinner. It's vital that we take time to take care of ourselves and pursue happiness in a daily basis. I took the meds and decided to write, watch some comedy skits in Youtube and bring a pint of ice cream-( pursuing happiness in a daily basis.)




    But when something amazing ends it is heartbreaking. I usually have friends that I have since 10 years ago. So breaking up a friendship is something that I am not used to. I miss the person incredibly. I want things to be okay without compromising what I already have. At this point I cannot sacrifice the other in order to keep the other. When I have finally learn to breathe again, to switch on my heart and get sweep off my feet once in a while, one goes straight to the door without a word. I did try to make amends but to no avail. I never experienced something like this before. I never had a friend who made me choose over coffee-flavored ice cream and the chocolate one. Because I love them both.


   I don't know what's out there. I am happy. I have an amazing job that I aspire to excel in. I have great interests and passion worth my entire life to be devoted to. I have a heart surgery that starts to beat again. I could not be even more thankful for God's amazing grace.

    I opened my window for the first time. As the heat crossed my face and bustling sound of traffic caught my ears I felt the urgency to stretch my arms to reach the end of the pane. I am feeling better. The medication kicked off. My fever is gone. There is nothing more beautiful than having the ability to see things perfect even when they are not.