I realized that...

1. When I miss doing yoga or any form of exercise my level of confidence goes down .
2. The better I see myself naked the better mood I have.
3. Exerting effort to take care of oneself gives power to share love to others ; to be more generous, be kinder, be more positive.
4. We can only expect to be loved if we did enough to love our uniqueness and flaws equally.
5. A nice looking body goes better with a shining personality.
6. Eat well. Live well. Be happy. Expect you deserve only the Best.

The Internet, and the lack thereof

I just came back from my recent Paris flight when I realized that the internet in my  flat ceased to exist. For some unknown reason the router stopped working like some ghost intentionally robbed its life out of its cage ( which later I discovered to be half-true). With  my busy schedule and the ramadan timings it became so impossible for me to visit Etisalat. But then in between the moments of doing my errands and spending time with loved-ones while in Dubai I suddenly felt like a hole has started to grow inside my chest.

I cannot stand silence in the room. Ask anyone who knows me and he/she will tell you that whenever I enter a room I  immediately ask for the remote control or some music. I love the feeling of life as it roars. So having no internet for some weeks now I struggle to pop my old collection of CDs I brought from home to kill the deafening silence that evokes loneliness and negative thoughts. I miss having VirginRadio Dubai blasting from my speakers.

It's a blessing somehow that when this inconvenience occur my lovely roster is able to provide me with much needed internet connection while on layover. Haha.

I usually anticipate Munich for the short and easy flight and the cheap grocery supply but this time I just enjoy every single bit of connectivity the Westin hotel is able provide for free.

I realized that I am a little "done"  having my daily journal dose writing in traditional notebooks. I find comfort and solace and familiarity typing in my keyboard while I still circle and draw my print-out calendar and consider blocking dates in my IPAD or Blackberry a little bit annoying and ineffective.  I'm old-fashioned and un-techie. I don't know how to describe it but the modern technology although makes our lives so much easier I think it made us lazy and complacent at the same time. Everything is instant. It's great. However, looking back in the day when we spend the fleeting moments buried in books and games which actually involve a human presence, those were the times where we indeed move from one place to another exerting effort and requires thinking. The modern age continues to evolve which give birth to new habits.

My limited access to internet has made my life a little bit out dated with the rest of the world. Less instagram posts, facebook updates and no-more-stalking people I normally have no courage meeting in person were all replaced by reading books for real, quiet moments with myself, cultivating my faith and watching my favorites movies and US series (saved in my USB)  for about a hundred times. It calms me in a way. Like I have found  a secret place where I can  hide when I don't expect anyone to come fetch me. It's lonely and delightful at the same time.

Let's see what else this diet of social networking will do to my personal growth.
At this point I can see clearly with bright eyes.
Hopefully it will bring me more good than harm.
I will visit Etisalat by Friday.

Happy Eid to all!!!!

kisses from Munich 

Make it grow... Let the flame keeps on Burning....

“I think it’s great for two people to be together. That is a good number. I think, that to keep it alive though, you can’t spend every day together. It wears out the magic, Love means nothing to me if it’s not fortified with fierce, painful longing, brief explosive instances of furious passion and intimacy and then a sad parting for a time.

In that way, you can give your life to it and still have a life of your own. I think some couples spend too much time together. They flatten out the potential for experience by constant closeness.

Passion builds over time like steam. Let it rage until it’s exhausted and then leave it alone to let it build up again.

Why can’t love be insane and distorted? How can it be vital if it has the same threshold as normal day-to-day experience? Why not let the days before you see her be excruciating and ferment in your mind so on the day you go to the airport to pick her up, you’re nearly sick with anticipation?

And then when desire shows the first sign of contentment, throw it back in its cage and let it slowly build itself back into a state of starved fury.

Then when you are together, it all matters. So that when you look into her eyes, you lose your balance, so that when she touches you, it feels like you have never been touched before. When she says your name, you think it was she who named you. When she has gone, you bury your face in the pillow to smell her hair and you lie awake at night remembering your face in her neck, her breathing and the amazing smell of her skin. Your eyes go wet because you want her so bad and miss her so much.

Now that is worth the miles and the time. That matches the inferno of life.

Otherwise you poison each other with your presence day after day as you drag each other through the inevitable mundane aspects of your lives. That is the slow death that I see slapped on faces everywhere I go. It’s part of the world’s sadness that’s more empty than cold, poorly lit rooms.”

- Henry Rollins

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Friends = happiness

Hello Saturday!

Happy thoughts